InsaneJournal

this is what i get for watching the golden girls and downloading the theme song.
Friends are a beautiful, wonderful thing to have. The most important people in my life I consider to be friends, and it's hard to describe the level of impact they've had on me as a person and my life as a whole. My mother has been a close friend for years, and my father has been a confidant and adviser extraordinaire - they're the two people whose opinions I trust above everyoneelse's . But they're hardly my only friends (how sad would that be?) and the only people who've had a huge impact on me. There are a ton of people to whom I owe my very best, though I may not be fully capable of giving it to them at all times. There are friends who have stuck by me through thick and thin, all of my personal struggles and professional mishaps, break-ups, make-ups, downfalls and moments on top of the world. I can't even find the words to express the gratitude I feel toward these people, these wonderful people who have found a way to love me whether or not I've loved myself. I feel like these people should know who they are, even if we've only spoken once or twice, because typically you can tell when someone's words and opinions have value right off the bat, and whether or not they're truly genuine. I've always had a knack for that. I guess I just want to thank these people - the ones that are in my life every day, the ones that come and go, and the ones I know are here to stay.

I know I'm not always the best friend - I can be self-centered, I focus the entirety of my resources on a few people while neglecting others, and I'm not always around when I'm needed. My level of personal disclosure has dropped significantly in the last few years, and I'm less willing to share pieces of myself with others. I'm sorry. My point is you there, you know whether or not I consider you a friend. I'm not the type of person to be ambiguous about this sort of thing. It's you that I want to spend my darkest of days with, you that I want to hold during the darkest of your days. I want to rejoice in your triumphs and share mine with you. There's absolutely nothing more important in this world that the relationships you build with the people around you, because success is fruitless without someone to celebrate with and your hardships will never seem quite as horrible with someone to help you through them. Nobody laughs from deep in their gut, wholeheartedly and without restraint without someone to laugh with.

But honestly? The world is too big and scary of a place to get on without friends to laugh with. So thanks for all the laughs, even if you don't realize extent of your influence in my world.